i think my greatest pet peeve (lol this sounds like a elementary essay) is to be misunderstood.

if you dont know me, and you judge --well, i can let that go. youre not quite responsible. but if your a friend, esp a close friend, you have no excuse. obviously, ppl make mistakes from time to time...but the dictator inside of me (muhaha) believes you deserve otherwise.

i think it ties in with humility, and my need to be acknowledged. i feel like if ppl know me, they care about me. if you dont, you at least have my respect for being honest and fearless. if you dont, and you think you do...well, that pitiful arrogance drives me mad. you may see the flaws in me: pride, self appointed importance, perhaps unhealthy need for *my* truth..

this all leads to trust. i can forgive, but i may not trust again...i know i cannot be this conditional and merciless as a christian..but in a twisted sense, i rather you purposely hurt me, than not know you did. i begin to question your motives, but mostly our friendship and if its real. if you dont know me, are we friends?

i didnt realize to love unconditionally is to be vulnerable voluntarily. how powerful must you be?

"There’s something I wanna say
Something that I’ve been holding back
Can’t let it go another day
Let me start by saying that

Nothing, nothing,
Nothing, means more than the truth.

And truth is that I realize, love is fading from your eyes
Don’t know how it came to this, but we gonna get it fixed tonight
Cus nothing, nothing,
Nothing, is worth losing you"

~nothing, janet jackson.
love the song. not sure about the vid.